Today I wanted to get something off my chest. It's been many years since I've written something like this publicly (not since my LiveJournal days) so it might not even make sense reading it. I need to do this for myself.
For the last few weeks my heart has been weighing very heavy and I feel like there is dark cloud over me that doesn't want to go away. I have allowed some things certain people have said really, really get to me.
Meanwhile, they're WRONG! Dead wrong! If I think it's bullshit, why does it still upset me so much? I struggle with letting certain things go. I still go about about my business but that hurt and anger are still there just tugging at me.
Why can't I just ignore it? Brush it off? I'm too old for this nonsense! The people who said these hurtful things about me are pretty miserable in their own right and want nothing more than to bring others down to their level. Misery loves company. I know this!! So why am I letting them?
So what if they think I don't matter because I choose not to have children, because I have low tolerance for stupidity, because I graduated from college (!!!), because I have dreams to pursue and they're just sitting on their asses chain smoking their lives away because they have absolutely NOTHING going for themselves?? Yes I do think I'm better than a lot of things, everyone should! We all deserve the best life can offer, don't settle for less. I guess when you're crazy and ignorant, there's no changing that. That's it, I'm done, it's over! Writing this is me getting it out in the universe and leaving it there. I need to move on.